tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31599142519312153532024-03-14T08:37:33.430+00:00in the midden of nowhereknitting, Star Trek, Stargate, scifi, fanfic, tarot, women's tennis, cycling(watching),Asperger's, M.E., music, poetry, art, cats and blethers......Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.comBlogger156125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-6622131513970809332014-06-21T12:37:00.002+01:002014-06-21T12:37:15.297+01:00Dear Google...........no, I was not looking for "Velveteen Rabbit video"...... I was looking for Velveteen Rabbi vidui.<br />
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I would greatly appreciate it if you did not try to correct me...sometimes I am already correct.....Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-45429654605136630342014-05-16T08:29:00.001+01:002014-05-20T04:41:51.453+01:00Back in the midden.........after a long absence. Thinking it might be A Good Thing to do, to help myself.<br />
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So, looking back, I said 2011 was bad....well, 2012 continued in that flavour.<br />
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Husband had two more strokes, I had a breakdown, unable to give him the 24 hour care he now needed, and in July 2012 he went into a nursing home.<br />
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Fast forward a little, and the nursing home has been in the news for all the wrong reasons: poor care, huge investigation going on.<br />
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So, just keeping going.<br />
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I want to try to blog a little, often, as I said, to help myself; it's interesting looking at all the links and interests I had ...still have, as Im not sure which to delete, and will take my time thinking about it.... which are either much less relevant or not at all; and many new ones to add.<br />
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So, that will be good, to do that. Keep busy, in whatever ways Im able.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-75757146405048171202012-01-16T06:11:00.003+00:002012-01-16T06:21:28.379+00:00long time no post here.....2012 already....I am so glad to see the back 0f 2011: so much horrible stuff......husband suicidally depressed, then hospitalised(for something else)....breast lump for me, fortunately benign.....I had a stroke, back in - I think - April...and various other difficulties health and home wise....and then my mother killed in a fire in November.<div><br /></div><div>not a good year.</div><div><br /></div><div>thank heavens for good friends(mainly online...only one remaining 'real life' friend), lovely neighbours who are there to help and support at any time, and a new beginning which came just before my mother's death(more on that in a different blog).... and if it wasn't for her, I would not have it, so for all the unfortunate and difficult things which happened between us, she left me a wonderful legacy which is giving me comfort. </div><div><br /></div><div>I did a lot of grieving for her long before she actually died: so it still feels surreal and strange, and the manner of her death was terribly upsetting. Her wee cat died with her. I'm going to leave this here now as I'm getting teary again.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-19319771621405555792011-05-18T07:04:00.001+01:002011-05-18T07:05:17.340+01:00all clearthank the Universe the lump was all clear....should have posted that before now: home stuff as stressful as ever, though....Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-43602823345910732342011-03-09T15:30:00.002+00:002011-03-09T15:32:33.335+00:00I amsomewhere between here, and there<br /><br />I have a lump in my breast(appointment on Monday)<br /><br />I have a home situation which is increasingly mindblowingly stressful<br /><br />so that's about it, really.<br /><br />I love my cat. He asks so little, and gives so muchHerzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-9134534880258843992011-01-23T17:26:00.000+00:002011-01-23T17:27:46.644+00:00why?do people have more people?<br /><br />ie why do people have children?Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-71128742885621382192010-10-14T18:04:00.001+01:002010-10-14T18:05:36.149+01:00joan sutherlandsad to hear of her passing; I hope she's enjoying a cocktail with my dear friend Henry who was a great fanHerzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-18138571705886740442010-10-14T17:58:00.003+01:002010-10-14T18:04:19.916+01:00nice wee things today- my favourite ever Frasier: the one with Patrick Stewart<br /> - an unexpected Tannhauser with a wonderful Wolfram<br />- a classic Likely Lads: avoiding the score<br /><br />these are wee things which brighten and help me keep going.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-49525853085791986872010-09-28T13:23:00.001+01:002010-09-28T13:28:56.851+01:00cat today<a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com/2010/09/28/funny-pictures-ministry-of-silly-walks/"><img src="'http://icanhascheezburger.files.wordpress.com/2010/09/ee3b3ff0-44be-40de-bd69-e778e4c8d528.jpg'" title="funny pictures Ministry of silly walks feline division" alt="funny pictures-Ministry of silly walks feline division" /></a><br />see more <a href="http://icanhascheezburger.com">Lolcats and funny pictures</a>Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-42229344767789555722010-09-06T18:18:00.001+01:002010-09-06T18:20:23.159+01:00sudden realisation.........I have been and still am spreading myself too thinly(gotta love adverbs)........<br /><br />somethin's gotta give<br />somethin's gotta give<br />somethin's gotta give...........<br /><br />so here's to me....... :)Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-35780209319272488932010-08-23T18:34:00.000+01:002010-08-23T18:35:04.523+01:00damn, I posted in the wrong place<h3 class="post-title entry-title"> <a href="http://colonelcarterscello.blogspot.com/2010/08/say-what.html">say what?</a> </h3> <div class="post-header"> </div> <div class="post-body entry-content"> hypothetically.....<br /><br />what happens when the person is not the same person anymore.........<br /><br />what brought them together is greatly lost....<br /><br />for better or worse....<br /><br />I stay, I try, I silently scream.....<br /><br />maybe it's me? Some days easier than others. No-one to talk to(online friends, thank the universe: you know who you are). I am not cut out for this, That is not an excuse; it is a fact. I am working against myself.<br /><br />How is it possible to love and hate the same person at the same time?<br /><br />oh, may the powers that be forgive me but I needed to say that somewhere,and a random notebook didn't do it; it had to be in a place where there was the possibility of someone seeing it, reading it, and therefore allowing myself to be judged.<br /><br />Always have been, always will be, sod it.<br /><br />I think I remember a line from a Chrissie Hynde song: "It's a thin line between love and hate". Vacillates.<br /><br />I know that there are so many more people so much worse off than I am, but right here, right now, I am so........weary.<br /><br />It's like a constant drip, drip, srip, against stone.....wearing me down; the endless moaning and grumbling and I want to scream SHUT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />And then ofn course the row after daring to say something like that,and the risk of upsetting him, and and and and and and and and...........<br /><br />I shall post this before I chicken out and say how thankful(sorry but 'grateful' still sticks in my throat) I am that I have this place to say this.<br /><br />Tp anyone who read this, thank you.</div>Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-11001908182817613422010-07-21T16:13:00.000+01:002010-07-21T16:14:54.951+01:00och.........damn, but I'm missing the cycling today........Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-64283345547449624482010-07-17T17:18:00.003+01:002010-07-17T17:32:42.055+01:00three craws at the Openwell, there were only two.....but allow for some artistic license......<br /><br />three craws sat upon a wa'<br />sat upon a wa'<br />sat upon a wa - a - a- a........<br />three craws sat upon a wa'<br />on a windy east course golf course<br /><br />the first craw went lookin' fur his ba'<br />looking' fur his ba'<br />lookin' fur his ba-a-a-a-<br />the first craw went looking' fur his ba'<br />on an an east course windy golf course<br /><br />the second craw said 'Calcavecchi-aw'<br />'Calcavecchi-aw'<br />'Calecavecchi-aw-aw-aw-aw'<br />the second craw said 'Calcavecchi-aw'<br />on a windy east course golf course<br /><br />The third craw said 'ANYONE AT A'!<br />ANYONE AT A'!<br />ANYONE AT A-A--A-A'<br />The third craw said<br />''ANYONE AT A'!!!!!!!!!!!<br />OTHER THAN THAT WOODS MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-20109663675377573722010-07-15T15:12:00.002+01:002010-07-15T15:15:27.329+01:00half and halfI should know better than to set myself a challenge..my head doesn't work that way :)<br /><br />so, given that the Tour is now half way through, and I am in the middle of the foot of one <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">green</span> and one <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">yellow</span>, I think I'll end up with a pair of one <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">green</span> and one <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">yellow</span>.<br /><br />and why not.......Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-29001552773666292172010-07-08T18:23:00.002+01:002010-07-08T18:27:51.508+01:00Tour de Franceexciting, wonderful, inspiring, distracting, delightful, wonderful, colourful, and so much more......<br /><br />last year: one pair of multicoloured socks(the Peleton)<br />this year: three pairs: <span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">yellow</span>, <span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">green</span>, and <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;">red</span>/<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255); font-weight: bold;">white</span>(wish I could do spots but alas no..nearest I can get is mix)Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-15017825582347931972010-06-20T21:45:00.004+01:002010-06-23T08:54:06.801+01:00Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-76745962203969222722010-06-20T21:43:00.000+01:002010-06-20T21:44:44.861+01:00oh I don't know what ........friend of dh died........ weird feelings. Very very weird.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-42586803772479293682010-06-18T18:22:00.002+01:002010-06-18T18:25:21.725+01:00the loving of, and by, a catis different; this little soul depends on me, and that helps keep me going. If not for him it would be very easy to let go.<br /><br />I know I have little to complain about in comparison to others, and in fact I am not complaining: just saying how it is.<br /><br />How it is, is..........it gets no easier.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-40112183933619405952010-06-06T18:52:00.000+01:002010-06-06T18:53:10.569+01:00thank you(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Heather ))))))))))))))))))))))Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-3483291458733084182010-05-31T17:06:00.001+01:002010-05-31T17:08:44.555+01:00just how it isI feel played out.<br /><br />That apart, adding crochet cat blankets to my list of 'the only things I'm good for'.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-48109202054770971472010-05-25T07:31:00.002+01:002010-05-25T07:47:50.325+01:00doctorat the doctor, for a review and chat.......needed to talk about some crappy stuff; and I said to him that I thought that all I was good at doing was loving my cat and knitting socks.<br /><br />And he said - can't remember the exact words, but something like this: that those were two very good contributions to make to the world.<br /><br />I couldn't have asked for a better response.Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-38077390390237010932010-05-18T18:41:00.003+01:002010-05-18T18:49:39.086+01:00just thinking...........what a pretty wee lass Madonna was in her early career....<br /><br />......how cute Sarah Beeny is when she wrinkles her nose in the Landlord Insurance ad..........<br /><br />......how much I admire Leonard Cohen, in so many ways.......Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-58728635950784617982010-05-13T10:18:00.000+01:002010-05-13T10:25:05.446+01:00thanksfor all the help and hugs in the recent situationHerzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-38503868760546811662010-05-04T10:34:00.005+01:002010-05-04T11:18:59.748+01:00comfort foodssome of mine, in no particular order, and definitely not all together :)<br /><br /><br />Ambrosia rice pudding(NOT low fat)<br /><br />Heinz <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;">Tomato </span>soup<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;">custard</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">mashed potatoes</span> with lots of butter<br /><br />toast and <span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0); font-weight: bold;">marmalade</span>(Golden Shred)<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;">Butterkist<br /><br /></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">roast potatoes</span><br /><br />the skinny wee kid bars of <span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-weight: bold;">Dairy Milk<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">pizza<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 0);"></span></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span><br /><br /></span></span></span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-weight: bold;">white chocolate</span><br /><br /></span></span></span></span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">bacon sandwiches</span>(but only a daydream unless I fall off the veggie wagon)</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">to be added to.........</span><br /></span></span></span></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0); font-weight: bold;"><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">just remembered.......my own home made soup, when I can be bothered to make it</span><br /></span>Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3159914251931215353.post-86305057016542681042010-04-12T18:11:00.002+01:002010-04-12T18:16:46.205+01:00memory....OshawaI have that 'Feedjit' thing on the blog, and when I saw a visit from Oshawa, it gave me such a good memory of a friend who had relatives there..<br /><br />(that said, it's lovely to see all the folks who visit.thank you so much)<br /><br />thank you all .... :)Herzbluthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00695650519919976473noreply@blogger.com0