Dear Google.....

......no, I was not looking for "Velveteen Rabbit video"...... I was looking for Velveteen Rabbi vidui.

I would greatly appreciate it if you did not try to correct me...sometimes I am already correct.....

Back in the midden....

.....after a long absence.   Thinking it might be A Good Thing to do, to help myself.

So, looking back, I said 2011 was bad....well, 2012 continued in that flavour.

Husband had two more strokes, I had a breakdown, unable to give him the 24 hour care he now needed, and in July 2012 he went into a nursing home.

Fast forward a little, and the nursing home has been in the news for all the wrong reasons: poor care, huge investigation going on.

So, just keeping going.

I want to try to blog a little, often, as I said, to help myself; it's interesting looking at all the links and interests I had ...still have, as Im not sure which to delete, and will take my time thinking about it.... which are either much less relevant or not at all; and many new ones to add.

So, that will be good, to do that. Keep busy, in whatever ways Im able.

long time no post here.....2012 already....

I am so glad to see the back 0f 2011: so much horrible stuff......husband suicidally depressed, then hospitalised(for something else)....breast lump for me, fortunately benign.....I had a stroke, back in - I think - April...and various other difficulties health and home wise....and then my mother killed in a fire in November.

not a good year.

thank heavens for good friends(mainly online...only one remaining 'real life' friend), lovely neighbours who are there to help and support at any time, and a new beginning which came just before my mother's death(more on that in a different blog).... and if it wasn't for her, I would not have it, so for all the unfortunate and difficult things which happened between us, she left me a wonderful legacy which is giving me comfort.

I did a lot of grieving for her long before she actually died: so it still feels surreal and strange, and the manner of her death was terribly upsetting. Her wee cat died with her. I'm going to leave this here now as I'm getting teary again.

all clear

thank the Universe the lump was all clear....should have posted that before now: home stuff as stressful as ever, though....

I am

somewhere between here, and there

I have a lump in my breast(appointment on Monday)

I have a home situation which is increasingly mindblowingly stressful

so that's about it, really.

I love my cat. He asks so little, and gives so much

why?

do people have more people?

ie why do people have children?

joan sutherland

sad to hear of her passing; I hope she's enjoying a cocktail with my dear friend Henry who was a great fan