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Today's "Sunday Times" has a free dvd of "The Piano", and I really wanted it....we don't always get a paper. Anyway, that and a couple of other messages needed to be got; I was getting ready to go this morning, and I could feel the tingling in my fingers and the tight throat and chest that comes when I get the "Don't want to go out" feeling(that's not a good description: it's not about wanting or not wanting, but I can't think of a better word for now so it'll have to do)

A. was up and had been thinking of going out himself, and said he'd go, and it would have been SO easy to say yes, and let him do it.....not far, not much to get, and so on....but I made myself carry on getting ready.

and just as I was ready to go, realised I still had my slippers on...so had to stop and put on socks and shoes......

I'd intended to show off the new Bob socks, but also knew I had to get myself out out out before I backed down, and so put on a pair of Jitterbug pink and purple(can't remember the name)because they were lying ready (er, waiting to be washed....dirty wee midden...) and my black Mary Janes and headed out with the wicker shopping trolley.

Starting off down the road......sunny, chilly, but a pleasant morning; and I began to feel it ease a little, though not completely. Went down the High Street to the paper shop first, and got this month's Yarn Forward, and my Sunday Times, and another one which had a pattern to knit a cuddly Bob the Builder(the wee boy downstairs loves B the B and I'd love to knit him one)

Then on round to the supermarket, and got my bits and pieces, and the feeling had gone......

I sat outside to sort out the messages when I'd finished, and just to have a wee think and relax. I like to do that - just calms me a bit. Sometimes I sing Hare Krishna(out loud). That calms me, too :)

By this time I was really knackered and slowing up, and sore, and tortoised my way home.

For anyone(UK) who has a Tesco nearby, those big canvassy bags with ladybirds on are great for stash storage. Also used as a scratching post when full!

I was thinking as I wandered home - I was dressed head to toe in my own knits. Not every item, but literally from head to toe:

hat in Lorna's Laces SS rainbow(just a beanie)
scarf in LLSS Red Rover(Old Shale)
long fingerless mitts in Jitterbug Mardi Gras
socks in Jitterbug bright pink/purple(can't remember name)

nothing really matched, and yet they all did, in a weird way...reds picking up reds picking up pinks picking up purples and blues.......gave me a good feeling, anyway, and that's all that matters.

other thing - jings this is a long post; well, I did say I was going to write more........anyway, today I have the racing mind a bit; I do get this, up and down, and it made me wonder if the fact that my body can't (due to fibro/HMS/ME and some other things) race along with my mind, does that mean my mind races even more to compensate? Just a thought........

right .... time to didg through the stash for Bob the Builder bits :)

socks: one pair, two singles

Wollmeise Thriller
top to ankle in k2p2 rib, then st st foot. Loved the pooling on the leg - that's why I did it in rib(prefer st st)
needles: two circs 2.5mm
cast on 64 st













same sock, another view;
to show the stripy st st foot














and again..view from above......love the pooling and striping....










Lorna's Laces Sheperd Sock Devon, k2p2 cuff, st st for the rest. 2 circs 2.75mm 60 st









and now for the pair :)
Wollmeise Bob WD
short k2p2 cuff, then st st all the way. Colours make me think of autumn ......Cox's Orange Pippin Apples.
Again 2 circs 2.5 64st.

I'm finding that my Wollmeise 'fit' :)















by the by......the feet are mine.....long and very thin: size 8 UK. I have a pointy slanty toe and like doing an inside out three needle cast off on 16 st(8 on each needle)

agoraphobia and sandals and socks, oh my......

.......not a resolution, just a realisation and an idea that might help and motivate me.

I used to think that agoraphobia meant that you don't go out - at all. It doesn't. I've got it. I'm also doing what I can to try to help myself.

At the moment, in all aspects of my life(mental. emotional, physical, spiritual) knitting is helping me keep going. I've also come to the conclusion(always knew really) that I'm not terribly good at big things.......and since I love making socks, they are perfect to make. For me, of course :)

And.....I got some wonderful Doc Marten sandals in the sales(several pairs for the price of one)......and then the thought came to me, like putting two and two together: sandals and socks: and then I thought, hmmmmm......that might encourage me to go out a little more; lovely new sandals to make all kinds of socks to show off......

just out locally, nothing spectacular: but OUT.

So I get to make my favourite thing to help myself...sounds good to me.

Oh, and I have Wollmeise, and some Sanguine Gryphon.....

Have finished one pair already and am charging up the camera so i hope to put pics up - please come back and have a look....the colourway reminds me of Cox's Orange Pippin apples......Wollmeise.....

got lots of others on the go - I like to have several different things at different stages/levels of difficulty(though most being simple stocking stitch: just knitting and loving it, the smooth motion being soothing in itself)

so, a bit of a ramble.....pics to follow, with luck......

First Post of 2010

lots I want to say......but a brief one for now: firstly wishing all who read here a very happy and healthy New Year, and thanks for visiting.

Today brought the first mail we have had for over a week......combination of New Year and the weather, I guess; but a lovely combination of Wollmeise, Sanguine Gryphon, a sock book, and a Star Trek notebook.

A great mix of my favourite things :)

More thoughts soon......I really do want to do this more often; it helps me to think things through, sort my thoughts, and just generally feel as though I do actually exist.......sometimes I wonder ;)