thank you.......

...amber and heather....you're a pair of sweeties; this afternoon I put on my new tshirt(Star Trek of course....big picture of T'pol from Enterprise on the front), my new(well, new to me)jacket(remember those fruit salad chewy sweeties? think those colours, in stripes, with a bit of turquoise)and my own knitted socks(Lorna's Laces Miata)and went up to Borders and got three magazines, and some ink cartridges from PC World. And some sweeties.

Home, and watched some tennis, and knitted, and had the most gorgeous cat cuddle......Toty up across my front, chin resting on my shoulder, paw stretched out over my arm, so sound asleep she was snoring and twitching and dreaming. We'd just shared some custard(she had her own wee saucer) and had a dreep of custard on her chin. The perfect cuddle.

I'm going to write down everything which comes to mind about the situation, and take it from there......thanks for being there - it's a very real comfort.......

and there's more.....

got the most horrible communication from the emotional vamp this morning: shaking like a leaf......

so am going out this afternoon for a walk to clear my head, calm down, and buy something....just a magazine or a wee thing, but a cheer up.

f*ck it.

letter to myself

last night I wrote one......feeling that I am and have been a 'bad' wife, daughter, friend, everything; falling woefully short in every category in every way. Nothing of self pity in all this - just cold hard fact.
So what am I to myself? That's the £60,000 question.......and I don't - yet - have the answer, if indeed there is one.........

Mauresmo and Mars.......

breaking news...well, to me, as I'm the coo's tail(all behind)......Amelie is breaking from Loic Courteau, and snow is falling on Mars....

two things

which help keep my head 'above water'.........

knitting
learning to play mandolin

just posting to make sure I still can......

and so it continues...... :(

....... first my blog gets flagged as spam: now I've accidentally deleted my email account - any folks who keep in touch with me, would you email me at my gmail so I know, if you could, please?

my wee mind is boggling......down here in the midden it is a bit turbulent! Time to go and have a rummage in my stash and just look and feel pretty colours and wool......

testing testing.........

......to see if I can post - tried yesterday and was told that my blog had been flagged as a spam blog....WTF?

so let's see if this posts......